Who Knew? I Didn't.

I've never understood relationships.


Never.


With this lack of understanding, I tend to wreak havoc on the relationships that I desire to maintain and the relationships I need to maintain in a healthy way. Especially my family. Honestly, I'm quite surprised I haven't been given a notice of eviction yet. So here I am, sitting at my computer bawling my eyes out because I can't seem to hold a normal conversation with my own mother without it turning into an argument over who knows what and why.

Relationships are just so hard to maintain in a healthy, appropriate way because every single person deals with situations differently. I am one of those people that needs an hour or two or three to think over what had just happened and why it happened and how it turned so sour so quick, whereas a majority of the people in my immediate family are, for the most part in their own individual ways, the kind of people that usually come out of a fight/argument/disagreement, then five minutes later are trying to reconcile themselves with the other person. This is something that doesn't go over very well with me because of my needing extra time to process everything.

Communication is another huge issue. I am constantly failing in this department because I internalize. My thinking process doesn't help at a lot either because, for the most part, I think in general concepts, ideas, and pictures, and when a person thinks way, it's a little bit harder to translate the thought into words, it takes a little bit longer to get the information out. This gets me into a lot of trouble sometimes because I start rambling on and on, trying to find the right words, causing the listener(s) to either become uninterested in what I have to say and stop listening or become annoyed by my rambling. I'm not really one of those ramblers that try to fill the silence.


I don't mind silence. . . actually, I prefer silence. I like silence because silence doesn't require me to talk.



I feel that I have rambled enough about nothing and now feel that I must say goodnight to the world wide web and all who inhabit it.

So until next time, Buenas Noches.