On Life (At This Point In Time) and Contentment (At This Point In Time)

I work in retail.  I don't earn much working in retail.  I earn even less working in retail when my employer cuts my hours.  This last statement is ringing very true at this very moment in my life.  It's a very big challenge to go from working, on average, about 35-37 hours a week to working 21 hours a week, all the while earning a wage that's just a little more than minimum wage and working in a position that I don't like (there are other not so great issues that I'm dealing with at work, but I won't mention them here due to the internet not being the place to air out dirty laundry).  To say that I am a stressed out broke person would be a very good way to sum up my life at this point and it hurts me to know that this is my situation right now.  

The emotions that I feel are very mixed at this point in time.  I am stressed due to school yard politics and other certain circumstances at work; I am stressed over my pay rate and lack of hours that have I to work; I am stressed over that I cannot find a job elsewhere, despite my applying for so many different positions at so many different places.  

Yet, I am grateful for the job that I hate.

To a certain extent, it pains me to say this because I hate it.  I hate my job.  I hate the school yard politics that go on at my job.  But I am grateful for it because I have a job.  Am I stressed over if I'll be able to pay for rent and other bills at this point in time?  Yes.  Am I stressed out due to circumstances at work?  Yes.  There are a number of things at work that are causing me stress, but God is allowing me to work.  I will have you know that I'm crying while I type this because of how down and out I feel.  But there was a bit of encouragement that came my way over the past 24 hours and it came through in two different ways.  The first bit of encouragement came through something that I won, and what I won was a bouquet of flowers from a local floral shop.  Now I have a lovely bouquet sitting in my living room that will brighten up not only my life, but also the lives of my roommates.  The second came in the form of a text that I received from my mother.  She texted me this morning to say that she was praying for me (which I greatly appreciate) and also sent me some verses on contentment to look up (because she knew that it would be far more beneficial for me to look them up myself rather than her giving me the actual verses).  And the verses are these:

1 Timothy 6:6-8

6 But godliness with contentment is great gain, 7 for we brought nothing into the world, and[a] we cannot take anything out of the world. 8 But if we have food and clothing, with these we will be content.

At this point in time, these verses are both an encouragement and a little painful because I have been blessed with food and clothes, among other things, yet at the same time, it's hard because I'm in the position where I don't know if I'll be able to pay bills and I hate my job.  At this point, I'm really banking on God to provide because there is no way that I can make it on the hours, pay rate, circumstances, that I'm working at and in.

But seriously, in the end, God is good and I know that He is good and that He provides because I've seen Him do it in my life and in the lives of others.  Now to work on being content in the hard times (because it's so easy to be content in the good times).